HUMAN, BEHAVE YOURSELF.

there are pockets of water all over my walls in my room .. not good.

tesser:

yup. almost to that point. about to break. want a break. NEED a break.

i just want to crawl into my bed and sleep until may.

thats what im going to do until august … but ill come out of my bed in may to turn 22 then ill go back.

smachel:

There’s too much up in the air right now and it’s overwhelming. I don’t have the money or time to pick up and find somewhere new. You save up for something like that. I can’t lose money. This is just one more thing I didn’t need at this time. It’s frustrating. The thing is.. I can’t be stressed or frustrated right now. Its not healthy :(

Why don’t you call when you’re supposed to?!?! You’re an asshole sometimes!!!

you could just talk to me about these things and then you wouldnt be frusterated. we arent moving and dont have to look for another place.

so it’s either michigan or figure out some way to stay in LA. if i lived in michigan i would have more money to spend, i could take tess out on dates and i would never be lonely cause i would have my best friend right there next to me. i would have someone to wake up in the middle of the night when im crying hysterically. i cry hysterically here and no one is there, just the one person who is making me cry. its not so much him making me cry .. just the situation. but michigan? ehhh i love california so much its so pretty and the weather is so great. hmph

2 years, 2 years of amazing love that will be so hard to forget. i will never date again. i hate that i have to be put through this .. but never again will that happen. 

i actually like going to work now because i hate being in this apartment. tonight i get to have a good time eating, drinking, and playing games at mary’s.

i hate this.

i cant sleep. this is the hardest shit ive ever had to go through. i hate love im never doing it again ever. i just want to get on a plane to hawaii and live in a hut on the beach forever. and i hate the beach