HUMAN, BEHAVE YOURSELF.

[22 Dec 2003|05:27pm]

“Finally ALL these black guys showed up. They were such good dancers !! There was this one 1/2 black 1/2 white guy…omg he was soooo hott, and the best dancer ive ever seen !!. Im gunna marry him ;] lol` anyways, ive never danced w/ that many black guys. We were grinding w/ them and stuff..it was soo much fun. There were a few weirdo’s there too ;x This kid asked for my # and so i gave him a fake one ;] lol. It was kinda scary cuz we could feel their dicks on our butts, and this one really cute black guy got a little to into it w/ me..lol. “

really? …… really?

i was reading a survey i did when i was 14 and this was one of the questions ..

“Age you hope to be married: i would love to be married by like 19-22 “

did i not realize i would be graduating high school at 19? im 22 now, 14 year old me would be very pissed i dont have a ring on my finger.

ok, this could be because im really high right now .. but i had this idea of posting my old entries from my other online journals (i.e blurty and livejournal). im reading this shit and cant stop laughing. I was literally the biggest douche bag ever. sometimes i will post ‘quotes by jessi’ and sometimes they will be so amazing i will post the whole entry. ill post an old entry to reel you in…

[mood|cranky][music|dare u to move - switchfoot]

heyyyy
friday: i got my hair done !* its so cute- [[red]] lol. anyways - i went to watch kelly dance for a couple hours, then we went to the ecs football game to see *lenia* aww, i love her so much !!@&* we won to0..i kno, shocked me too! hah` then i slept over at kells house. We watched just married and littl of phone booth ;D So the next day we just kinda hung around, watched movies, that stuff. Then we went to my house and got ready for the movies. We had an oka. time..cept for one thing that im a bit` pissed about. Im not gunna get into it..but one word pretty much explains it all…’jason’ ahhhh fuck ! ass hole ass hole ass hole…alright im good. BUT!- jason= u owe` me big time..be careful of what u say, or u WONT have a homecomming date. & i understand that we are bestfriends, so dont worry about it. K- ANYWAYS- then kell and i walked around after the movie. We saw alex !! aww *we hugged* ;p im glad we’re cool. Cuz he is a fun guy hah` so later kell came over and we had some fun ! haha. u kno what i mean kelly ! this morning to went to church. Later we are gunna play volleyball and stuff. oh and by the way…chris is hott ;x lol` k- later ppl <3 3 3

HAHA at me sounding like a complete lesbo. (watching kelly dance, we had some fun you know what i mean) lord help me..

having one of those days where i wish i was someone else

i hate my mind i hate my brain i hate my thinking i hate you i hate him i hate her i hate that dog i hate that car i hate that hair cut i hate worrying i hate feeling this sick i hate how it wont stop.

sorry, i “dislike”. 

i really miss having season passes to see broadway musicals, im in dire need to see a few plays that are out.

I had a dream last night about something i have been worrying about for a few days now. The dream basically played out the one thing im scared of happening. It sucked because i feel like it was a warning sign but i probably wont listen. Then i dreamt i was back in high school with all of my friends and i got to go to Dog class which was just playing with puppies. There was also a big conveyor belt that ran through the school and me, ryan horvath and drea would get on it and ride around all day. that part was cool, the first part sucked. 

i love how all my friends can become friends without meeting each other. like sarah and lauren, how you guys reblog each other, it makes me really happy.

It’s still difficult for you to make any significant decisions, for you are being pulled in too many directions now. Normally, you can synthesize a lot of complexity into a simple conclusion, but today’s solutions don’t feel one hundred percent correct. Don’t take the first step of a long journey until you are absolutely sure of where you are going.

i really hate all this boshit boshit sign crap, but this is so spot on …

i forgot how much i love orange juice … thats about it for today.