the Jermaine Dupri station on Pandora.com is amazing
I was very social but kind of quiet, friends with just about everyone, but always had a bit of an attitude. Not a really snotty one, just a “i hate high school & i just want to get it over with” tude. I always listened to different music than people, dressed a little different (on days we didn’t wear uniforms). I always just went with the flow and stayed out of drama as much as i could, i was really upfront with my friends. I usually had a boyfriend .. junior/senior year my boyfriend went to a different school so I didn’t hang with a lot of people i went to school with. My senior yr i switched to a brand new public school where I got voted “most unique”. I don’t know if that was supposed to be good or bad ……. My two best friends my senior year were two dudes, one was a jock and the other was the class clown, both dumb as rocks but i loved them. I can’t even tell you how many rumors went around about me but i just ignored it and had fun.
that basically sums it up, i hated high school so bad but when i look back on it now, i had it pretty easy..
Thank you so much, you’re so sweet. And anytime on the advice stuff, I am always willing to help, or at least try to anyway :)
my best friend got accepted into nursing school today :) i love her …. so weird someone so spastic like her can be a nurse.
getting a little personal with ya’ll …
I don’t know what it’s like to have an adult relationship with a father. My dad and I’s relationship ended when I was 15 when I realized what he really was, and he left. I always knew when I was little that he had problems but he was my dad so I just went with it and didn’t think too much of it. The main father figure in my life passed away and that killed me. I thought I could re-build my relationship with my dad after my grandpa passed but when I called my dad to tell him what had happened his response was “well why didn’t anyone tell ME, thanks a lot why am I always the last to find things out”. I didn’t even know what to say to that. I am always the one that is expected to call, or to visit. But when I do call, the conversations are about 2 minutes long and they consist of him complaining how much his life sucks and no one likes him but he doesn’t know why, everyone is the bad guy, and then he pushes me off the phone like he doesn’t want to talk to me. I try and even talk to him about this and he just shuts down and plays the victim and tells me what I am doing wrong. When he visits, he never wants to talk about what I am doing, it is all just him complaining about one thing or another. I feel bad for him, that he has never really grown up and never really dealt with his problems. Sure, he has been to therapy, been on pills, meditation, etc .. but nothing seems to ever really fix it. When I went to Montana to visit last summer, the trip was amazing. We had a blast and I thought that from here on out things would be awesome and easier. But sadly, the mean facebook comments and messages came flying through like old times. I gave up catering to his drama and said what i really meant, which is what you should do in relationships. WELL, guess he couldn’t handle it and told me to have a good life ..
I just with my grandpa was here to say “baby it’s ok, ya’ got me and thats all ya’ need, like lookin’ into a mirror”.
& looks like my mom will be walking me down the isle if i ever have the balls to get married.